This was a fascinating session story that I have been wanting to write about. The client gives her permission for me to share… I will call her Lou for this recap…
Background: I would like to describe Lou as a quiet, heartful woman who lives in the country, loving her garden, dogs, horses and pygmy sheep. In this current lifetime, among other activities, she likes to use her artistic talents to paint… and she had been having some dreams.
They were of a Tibetan lifetime, with recurring symbols and over a year or two of this, she had accumulated bits and pieces of a story from her dream times, seeing herself as being in charge of a wagon that took special jars over the mountains, holding prayer flags inside from the Monks.
The wagons had something like vertical dowels installed, and the jars had similar deep indentations on the undersides, enabling them to be held in the wagon for transportation over the rough mountain passes.
Very interesting was this… that as Lou made paintings from her dreams…
somehow someone (a Buddhist devotee) saw them and thought he recognized some of the symbols. They showed them to a high Rinpoche master… and it turned out that these had been very secret and sacred symbols, known only to the highest, most central order of the Tibetan monks. (Lou says she is not a reader, and she has no formal training in any religious lines, just painted what she saw in her dreams.)
After gathering together and sincerely questioning her, the Tibetan priests believed that Lou had indeed brought these forth from her dreams, and they considered this to be such a deeply significant manifestation that they organized and held a special Ceremony to honor her. They gave her a Tibetan prayer jar, like the ones she had seen in her dreams, and the jars were said to be able to manifest things inside.
Such a mystery! … Lou had a lot of curiosity to know more about these dreams, the images she kept receiving/remembering… and so she came tentatively for a QHHT session to see if she could access more memories, more understanding.
Of course, we never know what the HS (higher self) will choose to show…
A fascinating and inspiring life story came through in her session, and I love to share it with you!
PS – Since the session, Lou has made some drawings of what she saw, and I include them here, where applicable. (I was so tempted to hand her a pen during the session, but did not want to surprise her, distract her out of the ancient moment, as I read had almost happened with one of Dolores’ clients, when they grasped a writing implement that seemed to come from “the future”..)
As a facilitator, it was also fascinating to me how her HS gently and gradually introduced themes and led her toward the unfolding of what she was seeking. (A message for us to never think that any of the scenes shown are random. The HS always knows what it is showing, and it all comes together in the end.) I condense:
First off, to my somewhat surprise, when invited to go on a cloud, she said no, she didn’t think she could do that. So we found a canoe in her beautiful place and she was able to get inside that, drifting and floating to a very interesting destination, with small forest people who had naked painted faces and bodies and were raising her as an orphaned young girl – she loved to be with them and to learn all about the plant gifts they were giving and teaching her. (Themes : Nature, elements, pigment / paints)
This is Lou’s sketch of the yellow dress that she liked to “spin and twirl” in: (When we visited her home it appeared her family had fled for some reason, never to return. She went to play in the woods, with her forest people friends, in this dress… She loved being with them and did not want to return to that empty old house ever again. So we left that scene… )
Then she went to a scene (1940’s) at a family birthday party (city neighborhood), where an uncle selected her from the group of children to sit up with him by the cake and help lead the festivities. (Theme: being selected for a special purpose.)
Next she jumped into a scene/current lifetime memory with a high school girlfriend, where they were climbing through the window to sneak out with the friend’s mother’s car. “Oh, we’re gonna get in trouble!” (Theme: deep bond of friendship, crossing some lines together to sneak and do things not sanctioned by the “rules”)
Then, it seemed she was ready to visit “the most appropriate time and place”… Her voice changes, dropping a few more notches, and she is very deep…
(If you will notice, in these different scenes, she sometimes begins with a driving question that she keeps repeating, dwelling on, despite my line of questioning, and then later comes the grand revelation, the great Answer to each of these – very significant – questions.)
The Cave, the Jars, the Monastery and the Holy Man
I am in a cave. I’m by myself.
Are you seated? Yeah. And I’m thirsty.
Feel like you’ve been there a long time? Yes.
What are you wearing?
Simple, it’s very simple. Like pajamas, but they’re loose.
And I’m thirsty. I’m really thirsty.
You’re in this cave for meditation? Yes.
Is there anyone else there? No.
I can write on the walls if I want.
Have you been writing on the walls?
Sometimes. When I’m not sitting.
I can draw. On the walls.
Can you see some of those drawings that you’ve done? Yes.
What do you draw with on the walls?
Like stone. Like, it’s not chalk… like stone.
Soft type of stone that can make marks, or are you carving on the wall?
It’s like, not carving, it’s more like a soft stone.
Does it have a color? Sometimes it’s white. Sometimes it’s black.
And sometimes it’s colors. There’s not very many colors.
What kind of things are you writing on the wall?
It’s mostly, just like pictures. Small pictures. And I just did a bird.
And what’s that bird like?
It’s a small bird, like a chickadee.
Sometimes I write words.
Can you see some of those words now?
Mostly just thoughts.
Is it things that come to you when you’re meditating? Yes.
Things that you see, when you’re meditating? Yes.
Will you tell me some more about that?
There’s no food there. And sometimes I get really thirsty.
Right now you don’t need to feel the thirst, or the hunger. We can come back to that.
Sometimes I think they forget I’m there.
They need to bring these things to you, to keep you healthy?
I think they’re … We have to go there.
We want to go there, but it’s always harder than we think.
To get to the caves? Yeah.
Who goes with you when you go to the cave? Who brings you the food and water?
There’s a priest. He’s like a holy man. He guides us there.
There’s like 4 or 5 of us, and then there’s only… then I’m by myself.
I think they’re in the other caves. But we’re supposed to stay in our cave.
What kind of clothes does this priest wear? He looks like a beggar.
Are you dressed like him, too?
No. He looks like he’s a beggar. But he’s really a holy man.
Did you go there with him?
He always brings us.
Sometimes I say, “Where will I get water?”
And he says, “You’ll get what you need, when you need it. It will be there.”
Is that part of the trust, part of the learning? Yes.
What else do you learn when you’re with this holy man?
Not to worry. Not to worry.
Worry is not of this world. (quotes to be remembered; the story continues…)
You had to come quite a distance to get to this cave? Yes.
Where does it seem to be located?
Beyond the mountains.
What mountains does it seem like these are?
They’re big. And there’s a valley. And then there’s the caves.
What time of year does it seem like? It’s hot. It’s very hot.
Tell me a little bit more about what you’re wearing. Can you see your feet?
I’m usually barefoot, but I’m not barefoot. I think they’re like, just like leather. Like a bag and you put your foot in it, and just tie this tie around it. Yeah, it’s like leather, it’s soft, but I don’t wear them all the time. Just when we’re walking. In the cave I don’t need them.
It gets cold at night.
So do you stay there for a duration of time?
How long do you think you’d be there?
A long time, like 4 months.
Tell me a little bit more about what you’ve been putting on the walls.
I draw on the walls.
There’s a lotus. There’s some lotuses.
There’s some trees. And sometimes I draw the village.
Can you tell me about the village?
It’s nice. There’s good food there.
What do people live in, in the village?
Small houses, some are wooden, and some are like stacked rocks.
It gets cold at night. But it’s hot in the day.
Do you have a sense of what part of the world you’re in? What’s the name of your village?
The village is in the valley. And the cave is up higher. Over the mountain and to the caves.
And you go up there for a reason, with the holy man.
Yes. We go there for pilgrimage.
M/F? I’m male, about 18 or 19 years old.
And there’s a reason the holy man has selected you to be part of these pilgrimages.
I’m the painter. I’m the painter. I do the paintings.
Is that why you meditate, to get your images for the painting?
I go to the cave for discipline.
There’s no distractions. And I can meditate.
(whispering) But I find distractions in the cave. Like what?
I make little things out of things. And I stack rocks.
Mmm. Kind of hard to meditate all the time, isn’t it?
It is. And the holy man’s not always there.
So sometimes they just leave you by yourself up in the cave, to be by yourself for a while?
Yes. Sometimes we sneak off together. There’s another boy.
(whispering) Sometimes when it gets dark, we sneak down, and look for food.
Cause there’s no food.
Is that part of the discipline, being there with no food?
No food and no water.
And no worry.
Is this just a teaching of the holy man, or are there more people that follow this sort of belief system and practice?
There’s a big village, and he’s very, very, very holy. People love him.
What’s his name? What do people call him? Hmmm… Something. They adore him.
He’s a good man.
He says I need to learn patience.
I should have patience.
What do you call this holy man, if you speak with him?
Hmmm… I don’t know?
He’s a really great man.
You admire him a lot. Yes.
And it’s special that you get to go with him to the caves? Yes.
And they’ve chosen you to be the painter? Yes.
And why is a painter important?
They paint the Temples. They’re the Temple painters.
Tell me a little bit about the Temples.
They’re beautiful. They’re big and they’re beautiful.
And if we’re good in the caves, we get to go to the Monastery.
Have you been there before?
I’m not old enough.
What have you heard about the monasteries?
That they’re beautiful
What happens there?
I don’t know. I haven’t been yet.
But that’s something you might aspire to, if you do well in the caves?
Yes. I think I’m going, but I have never been.
Can you tell me a little more about what you drew, or what you’ve been painting in the cave?
Lots of different shapes. All the shapes.
All the elements. Every element.
Sometimes I draw all night. Quietly.
What do you use for light when you draw at night?
I have a stick-thing that we light.
And maybe we make a fire. Sometimes we make a fire in the cave.
Tell me about these elements. What elements do you draw?
Wind. Sometimes I draw wind.
And sometimes I draw water.
Metal. I draw the elements.
Is it possible for you to tell me what it looks like when you draw wind?
It just makes the trees look like they’re blown over.
It’s like the effect of the wind? Yeah.
What about drawing water?
Sometimes I draw the motion of the water.
How does that look?
What about the metal, how do you draw metal?
I sometimes draw boxes that look like metal boxes.
——————— Moving forward in time, to an important day…
You said you might be sent to the Monastery as a painter if you did well in the caves…
What did the holy man decide about your painting and your meditation?
I’m too social. I’m too much of a distraction to others.
Is that what he says? Yes.
And where are you right now? I’m at the school.
He’s not mad. He’s not disappointed.
He just said it’s not my path.
And that even though I’m good, it’s not my path.
How are you feeling about that? I’m disappointed.
Because you really tried hard, when you were doing all that meditating and painting, didn’t you? Yes.
Does it seem like it’s some kind of final decision, or is that just a point along the way? You’ll continue studying in the school?
Ooooh. (sounds disappointed)
I get to have a family.
My friend goes to the Monastery.
The one who would sneak out and help you find food? Yes.
So that’s the decision that comes to you on this day. Yes.
A very big turning point in your life.
———– Moving forward , another important day…
There’s a lot of us. And I go to the Monastery. I’m picking up the jars.
My friend is there. My good, good friend.
And he gives me the jars. He carries some with me. And we laugh!
And he says, “Don’t get me in trouble.” And we laugh!
Because he’s supposed to be quiet and serious? Yes.
But he’s so happy to see you? Yes, he laughs.
He’s giving me the jars, and we put them on the truck.
What’s inside those jars?
There’s prayer flags. There’s prayer flags in the big jars.
Aaaaah.. They’re prayer flags!
They’re for the village.
What do they do with them?
They string them.
And the intentions go out to the village, from the monks.
Oh, I’m kind of sad. Why?
(almost tearfully) My friend didn’t get a family.
(whispered, through tears) He doesn’t get a family.
He’s sad. But he’s laughing, because it’s me.
Is he lonely there? Yeah, I don’t think he wanted it.
I don’t think he wanted to be there.
I’m sad for him.
He’s giving you all the jars, and then you’ll be leaving. Yeah.
You can’t really stay. No. I bring him food. And presents.
(Whispered, as if a special secret): I wrap special things for him.
I have some special foods that I wrap for him.
(smiling) He puts them down his robes! And he laughs! He’s a good man.
It sounds like your friendship is really important.
Will you be coming again to get jars?
Yes, I always get the jars. That’s my job.
So you’ll get to see each other each time you come for the jars… Yes.
Okay, tell me about the journey now… Where are you taking the jars?
I sometimes take them to the caves.
To the caves of the young boys.
They pray and put intentions in the jars.
Okay, so you gather the intentions, and you also deliver them?
Yes. Empty jars to the caves, and then pick them up when they’re ready and take them to the village.
And you go to the Monastery and also pick up jars.
The ones in the Monastery have the flags in them.
The prayer flags.
So that’s different from the prayer intentions from the caves…
Yes, that is. The ones from the Monastery are different.
The ones at the Monastery are tall jars, and they’re ivory looking porcelain.
They’re carved. I think they’re porcelain. They have like auspicious signs on the top.
There’s one with a fish. And there’s one with a Lotus.
There’s one…. looks like a design, like a drape.
The one with the fish…
What does that symbolize?
I think that’s Abundance. And the one with the drape is the….
It’s the 7 Auspicious Symbols.
And so those are the tall jars that you get at the Monastery, and the other ones?
They’re not as pretty. They’re smaller.
They’re more like earthen-ware. Like terra cotta.
The ones from the Monastery are more beautiful. More delicate.
The earthenware jars are…
(realization) Oh, those are the Intentions.
And sometimes, if you do things right… and you open the jars, sometimes they’re filled with things.
Like, if you’re thirsty, there’s water.
And that’s what I didn’t understand. (sounds amazed, with light of recognition)
It was always there.
But I worried.
If you need something, it’s there. (more wonderment in voice)
If you don’t need it, it doesn’t happen.
It only manifests when you need it.
That’s a big realization. Yes.
(thoughtful pause, then confidently) That’s the way it is.
And those are the jars for the caves. Yes.
So when you were in the cave, you had a jar to put your intentions in. Yes.
And you were quite thirsty and hungry. Yes.
You wondered when they would come and bring you something to eat and drink. Yes.
And the holy man told you that you would get it when you needed it.
Now it seems there’s a different way to understand that, what he said… Yes.
Wow. Yes, I see that.
And now you are having a sacred entrustment to carry these jars.
What are you noticing?
Sometimes they’re heavy and sometimes they’re not.
Sometimes they’re really heavy.
If you manifest something, sometimes it weighs a lot.
And it’s too much weight.
So then what happens? You weigh the whole village down.
So it’s better to wait until something’s needed, and just have that much? Yes.
Are you part of this manifestation action now?
Yes. Sometimes I know how to manifest.
How you do that?
One time, I was showing Su the jars and she was scared, because we opened the jar and there were all kinds of coins in the jar. And we got scared, because we thought that people would try and want the jar. But no one wanted the jar.
And when I took it to the village I was afraid that everyone would run up and want the jar. Because there was so many coins in it.
But the holy man said, “It’s just enough. It’s what we need.”
And I said, “But there’s lots of money in it.”
And he said, “That’s not important.”
And I said that I was afraid that someone would steal it.
And he said, “You took good care of it.”
And no one ever tried to steal them. No one knew.
Sometimes we manifested… good health… for the village.
Especially if children had died.
Sometimes we manifested… things.
Like seed, one time.
We filled the jar with seed.
We manifested it. It just appeared.
So you could plant crops? Yes.
And then I delivered those.
I bet that was a joyous occasion when they found those seeds! Yes.
So were you with the holy man when you manifested those seeds?
Did you do that together with him? Yes.
He just told me to look in the jar.
And when I opened the jar, there was seed.
And I said, “How did it get there?” and he said, “You put it there.”
And I said, “How did I put it there?” and he said, “By needing it.”
He’s a great man.
Sometimes I worried about running out of gas.
And he would say, “If you sleep, there will always be gas.”
And I would say, “If I sleep?”
And he would say, “If you rest, there will be gas.”
I never ran out of gas.
Does it come through your dreams, or something you do when you’re sleeping?
If you need it, it’s there. You don’t have to worry.
Because the need brings it into form? Yes. That’s so beautiful.
Have you remembered the name of the holy man yet? What do people call him?
I think his name… I remember his name…
He looks like a beggar. I remember thinking he was a beggar.
And he’s with the Chinese (?), he’s with the Buddhists.
But I think he’s Indian. But he walks amongst them both.
He’s an Indian man, but he teaches the young monks!
Huh. Oh, that’s interesting. He’s, he’s Indian!
What else do you notice about him?
And …. Shebawi. (Name – Sai Baba)
He’s old. And kind. And wise.
He doesn’t need much.
Aaaah. He doesn’t need very much at all.
That’s part of his teaching, yes? Yes.
He’s not Buddhist. But he’s a great teacher.
… But he’s Indian.
Yes. He’s teaching the young monks.
Yes. Only the monks in the caves.
Only the young ones in the caves.
But he also works with you.
Because you were manifesting things into those jars with him. Yes.
Is there anything more about that, that you can tell me?
I’m thinking, cause he’s very special…
There was a war there, at the caves.
Between the monks and the Indians.
But this one holy man, still travels amongst them.
And he teaches, very much so, he teaches.
The caves are where the monks were.
And then there was kind of this war between them.
And then the monks went to the Monastery.
I think that they were, that was around the time when I was young.
Wow! I’m not sure why they didn’t get along… but they pushed each other out.
And then there was just the one, the one holy man.
And he stayed? And he stayed.
And he was willing to teach the young monks, even though they had been…
… warring. He didn’t care that they were Buddhist.
And they didn’t care that he was from the opposing group.
It seems like they respected him enough to make him a teacher?
Yes. Yes. It’s an interesting situation. Yes.
And so the village would send up their young monks, and entrust them under his care?
Yes. He was like the Guide to the caves.
He would lead them up there and stay with them.
And then you managed to go all the way up and gather jars? Yes.
And when you meet with him, are you bringing a knowledge of what the needs are in the village, that helps you know what to manifest?
Yes. Yes. It was an important job.
It sounds like a very important job. A very special job. Not a job that just anyone could do.
Right. It was an important job.
You were able to supply the needs of your village, whatever they may be.
And I would think you’d have to be very pure of heart to do that manifesting work with the holy man. Yes.
Not just anyone could do that, could they?
No, they picked me. He picked me. (contemplating.) He picked me.
It seems like a real sacred entrustment.
When you carry the jars, you don’t tell anyone what’s inside. And there might be a real value. And you might be bringing home a real treasure, that the village needs.
Yes. Sometimes it’s just yak butter.
Sometimes it’s seed. Always two jars.
Why is it always two?
I don’t know, but there’s always two.
And are those large jars? Big jars.
How big are those jars? The ones from the Monastery are probably 3 foot.
But the ones, the earthen jars, not quite so big, maybe a foot and a half.
It’s enough to hold quite a lot of seed. Yes. Yes.
Who makes the yak butter? It just comes!
That’s very special. I imagine you would look forward to those trips.
Sometimes I’m surprised. (whispering) And sometimes I laugh!
When you’re with the holy man? No, no. (Still whispering) Sometimes I laugh, because when I manifest, it’s like, I don’t know for sure it’s going to be in there.
Right, you have to go on trust, don’t you? Yes. That’s so beautiful.
Yes. I’m lucky. Yeah, this life has turned out to be quite wonderful. Yes.
——– Well let’s leave that scene, moving forward to another important day…
What’s happening now? I’m old. (voice now sounds old, cracked, tired.)
Where are you? I’m at the Monastery. I’m being taken care of. I’m very old.
My friend is there.
He’s still there? Yes.
Is he old too? Yes.
He’s with you? Yes.
Is he one of the people who are caring for you? Yes.
Have you gotten sick? I’m tired.
So you’re resting here at the Monastery? Yes.
Does it feel like you’re coming to the end of this life? I think so.
What are you noticing?
That my friend can make me laugh. He’s very funny!
Still funny, after all these years? Yes.
What’s he doing that’s funny? He’s singing. (pause, smiling smirk) And he can’t sing.
But he’s doing that for you? Yes.
That sounds really sweet. Yes.
Is there anything you notice or realize at this point in time?
No, I just notice that the Monastery is beautiful. I have my own room.
So you live up there now? Yes.
How do you spend your time when you’re up there?
I can sleep, as much as I want.
That must be very nice.
Yes. It’s up near the Dragon’s Lair. It’s on the cliff.
Tell me more about that.
It sits way high. (stops. puzzled) I don’t know how they got me there!
Because you’re not strong enough to climb up?
Yeah, … They got me there!! (With lots of wonderment)
It’s a very, very special place! It hangs out over the rocks.
It’s very beautiful. It’s my favorite Monastery.
I could never carry the jars there.
It’s so beautiful there.
(whispering, smiling) Sometimes he sneaks me out. Just like he used to.
What do you do when you sneak out? We go look at the valley.
We can see all over the valley from up there. (Still puzzled)
I don’t know how he got me there!! It’s very difficult! !
Haaaaah! I manifested it!! Aaaaaah!!
That’s it. Because you needed it now. Wow.
So you’re with your best friend in this beautiful place.
Yeah. (whispering) Wow. Wow.
You manifested that. Is this the culmination of your lifetime here? Yes.
(whispering, in wonderment) Wow. Very amazing.
Just drinking it all in. Okay.
Well lets move forward from this very magnificent moment, and this magnificent realization and time. Lets go to the last day of your life, in this lifetime, and what’s happening here?
Everyone’s here. My family. They’re beautiful.
They’ve brought them food, to the Monastery.
My daughters are there. Three daughters.
They have great colorful jackets – it’s cold.
Beautiful daughters. My grandson. It’s beautiful.
They’re laughing. They’re not sad. But laughing.
Are they happy to see what a lovely place you’ve manifested to be in? Yes. Yes!
So this is your last day, you’re moving through… Do you feel it’s time to let go of that body soon? Yes.
Okay. Are you comfortable? Yes.
Any thoughts you’re having, as you approach this moment?
No, just that I’ll miss my best friend.
He’s there with you? Yes.
Looking into each others’ eyes. Yes.
You feel good? Feel at peace? Yes.
You ready to let go? Yes.
Okay. Is there anything you want to say to anyone before you do? No. Okay, nice and complete. So you can just let go, and you can move away from the body.
And you can still stay there, and just look down on the scene, as an observer.
You can see everybody there. Yes.
Describe that scene: Quiet. It’s very quiet. Just quiet. Peaceful.
It seems like that was a beautiful life. From this position, you can look back on the entire life, and see it from a different perspective.
Every life has a lesson, and every life has a purpose. And as you look at that life, what did you learn from it?
Not to worry.
Not to worry and you can manifest what you need.
What do you think the purpose was, of that lifetime?
At the time I thought it was work. Doing a good job.
But now I know … that’s not what it was.
It was about friendship.
And just taking what you need.
And you only need so much.
And there’s always enough.
Post-session note: The client came in with physical complaints of arthritis, very hard to move her shoulders, arms, and legs. There was also a 35-year auto injury to the knee that was fairly disabling all of her adult life. During the part where we asked her SC about the physical issues, the answer was that she was holding onto her memories, so as not to lose them, holding them in her joints.
Her HS agreed to allow her to access the memories via her conscious mental abilities now, and with that, the client agreed that there is no more reason for the body/joints to try to do this job.
After the session I asked her to move her limbs. The arms moved overhead freely, and testing her knee / leg, she exclaimed with tears bursting out of her wide-open eyes, “It doesn’t pop any more!” … I couldn’t help but join in her joy and gratitude.
Note: Five months after the session, Lou reports that she has full range of motion, can work in her garden, and her knee hasn’t bothered her in a long while. She recently told me that she followed up the session with a PT who in one hour’s time was able to loosen away the old scar tissue that had formed during all those years. She is very happy for the healing and outdoor activities she is now able to physically do and enjoy.